Marriage & Promises

It seems to me that there are so many articles, clips and media going around these days talking about marriage.

It is strange to me that I'm still not married. Not that I deserve to be married or that I think that I'm a good catch, but rather it is something that I have wanted to do ever since I was a little boy. When I think about my life, my goals and my desires. Do I want to be successful at my job, yes. Do I want to be in ministry for God, definitely. But I think when it comes down to what I really want to do in my life; I want to be a great husband and daddy.

I think in my heart that there is no higher calling than to love those that God has placed in your life. I would go to work to provide for my family and ministry would be a reflection of the love I have in my family.

I often don't know why I think in this way. Sometimes when I speak to other Christians or observe other people, they don't have this desire. It seems strange to me, anyone that would value something over family.

That's strange to me as well, since I really don't have the best family life. Both my adopted family and my real family is dysfunctional. I struggle at family gatherings and I struggle to forgive and move on from the hurts that my family has inflicted on me. I guess part of me wants something more and part of me is just tired of being hurt and disappointed by those who are supposed to be the closest to me.

So where am I with all of this. I think every girl wants a man that honours her, pursues her, protects her. I know that I've made mistakes and I don't really know how to change the past, but I know that I am going to get this right in my life. I know I will be a man that honours and loves a women in my life. I know I will marry one day, to someone, and I know, I will be an excellent husband by God's grace.

I want to be the man, that loves his wife for 70 years, and is faithful to her, kind, loving, protective.

God help me to wait on you. Help me to trust you. Help me to be the man you have called me to be.
Amen~