The Man I Want To Become

I think part of my blog will be to post things that touch my heart in regards to what type of man I want to be. Last weekend was my good friends wedding and it was truly beautiful. One of the most convicting and challenging things that I saw was a man that had got it right. He had kept his integrity and he had guarded the heart of his now wife.

I know in my relationships that I have not done that. I think the greatest reason for this is the fear that has gripped my heart. It's a fear that as a young man I never realised was there, but as I get older, this fear of losing out, fear of making mistakes, fear of failing has brought about incredible devastation in my life.

I want to be a man that is no longer afraid. I think the only way I can be that man is to be one found in Christ. That doesn't mean praying all the time and reading your bible, but rather, one who's identity and definition is found in the finished works of Jesus.

I almost felt a bit of despair last night, thinking that I wouldn't be able to get there with a girl in future. However my friend pointed out, that this guy who got it right, also got it majorly wrong at the start of his life. He had a marriage that broke down because of his unfaithfulness and insecurities, yet I look at him now, and I can see that God has brought about incredible change.

I guess I want to be a man that is found in God, one that is not defined by his past or his failures, but one that recognizes his deep need for a Saviour and that his identity, who he is, how he defines himself and his success, in Christ.