Learning to Endure

I think one of the hardest things about pursuing God is learning to endure. I think in certain times of my life, I have endured very well and other times I have not to my detriment and the detriment of those around me.

One of the things I'm trying to do is be in the word daily, read books that edify my soul and to pray and connect with God.

I've started a lot of random things to try to help that. I've deleted all my games, sports programs, ebay type programs and internet on my phone, so literally all it can do now is use it as a phone and check my bank details.

I have also given my laptop to my pastor in order to ensure that I can keep my heart and purity to the best of my ability.

It is seriously hard, I have gotten quite bored at home, but luckily I can play instruments so that is taking some of my time.

I want to endure, I want to get there, I want to overcome.

It is hard because i'm getting to the stage in my prayer where I feel that I could either make this a habit or really break through and make this a connection with God. So many times i have done the first and come into a habit with prayer without really touching the heart of God. This time I want there to be a difference, this time I want there to be something that is miraculous.

God help me to endure, help me to endure for the right reasons and God help me to love you out of a pure heart.

'Do not grow weary of doing good, for in due time you will reap the reward if you do not lose heart'
Galatians 6:9